Day 4....

so what started off as a total stressfest ended on a great note....what was looking to be a busted trip was saved by an angel....and very strong angel! :) but now I feel like I have something to look forward to for next week....hoo-ray!




meal 1: shake-today it was coffee, choc protein scoop, 2tsp unswt dark choc powder


meal 2: 5oz turkey (95%), 2c broc


meal 3: 17 white shrimp, 5 egg whites


meal 4: 4.5oz chicken, asparagus


meal 5: 5oz of the cutest ribeye I've ever seen! 

Day 3....

home from work....today was better....interesting moment as I tried to leave for work....my key got stuck in the door....no really....hehehe I tried to take the key out and it wouldn't work so I had to call up the apt people and fortunately there were people there b/c the last thing I wanted to do was leave my key in the door! so they page someone, he comes over and successfully breaks the key off in the lock....opps....good job....fortunately for me I don't live far from work so they replaced the lock and brought me the new key....only downside was while waiting I had almost no shade to stand in and the mosquitos were about to eat me alive....I can't stand those dang things! so I was all nice and clean but then turned into sweaty and itchy....um, ick




I won a spin dvd on ebay last week and it came today so I am curious to try it out....one downfall? I can press pause....can't do that in a live class! ;)






meal 1: shake (see day 1 for contents)


meal 2: 5oz ground turkey (93%), 2c broc/cauli mix


meal 3: 3.5oz chk, 8 shrimp, romaine lettuce, walnuts, 1 oz feta cheese




so I didn't realize until just now that I missed a meal....guess all that key business screwed me up....but that last meal was SOOO yummy and filling that I'm not too terribly worried about it...

Day 2....

well, what can I say about today....mood sucked! :-/ I really don't understand these fluctuations other than to blame hormones and something either not uptaking or taking too much (think serotonin, et al, here)....I at one point today thought I was going to start crying...which, except for those aspca commercial with the poor animals, has not happened in a while....contrast that to yesterday when I was pretty jazzed to be back on diet again and feeling more in control....as I'm typing this I feel totally indifferent....not up, not down....so uh, yeah, I probably need meds :D hahahaha....but I have no insurance so that will wait!


before I post food, I do want to say keep a friend of mine in your thoughts as she tries to escape London! hopefully she'll face no delays and will make it out of there safely....the riots had moved to about 10min from where she was staying....scary stuff....






and for some odd reason the cat has taken to closing the bathroom door when using the litterbox....now I'm totally convinced he's human ;)






meal 1: shake (same as meal 1 yesterday)


meal 2: 5oz chicken, zucchini


meal 3: 5oz ground turkey (93%), okra


meal 4: shake (same as meal 1 except with vanilla)


meal 5: unsure-with either be 5oz chicken & asparagus or 10 egg whites and green peppers....let's see what mood strikes me

Day 1....

well here we are...back to the starting point again....not sure what to tell you other than this last week was a fuck disaster! oy-geez I let my hormones and all that totally get the best of me....so today I started over....I'm determined to make this head-to-toe overhaul stick this time....leading up to last week I was not so bad....didn't really care for the carbs back in the diet even though they were healthy carbs (like sweet potato, steel cut oats)....I just really enjoy my protein and veggies :) so today here's how the diet looked:




meal 1: shake (1 scoop protein, 1tbsp ff pudding mix, 8oz unswt almond milk)


meal 2: 21 white shrimp, 4 egg whites, 1 whole egg


meal 3: 5oz chicken


meal 4: shake from meal 1 plus 1tbsp natty pb


meal 5: 5oz chicken, zucchini (if I don't fall asleep!)




simple but effective....my troubles have come at night after work....I slid back into that all too familiar binge/purge cycle....trust me, I'm not proud about it....but I can't dweel on it....I have to pick myself up, dust myself off, and move on....






so here we go....again....

To Reconstruct.....may I have a definition please?

re·con·struct  tr.v. re·con·struct·ed, re·con·struct·ing, re·con·structs 1. To construct again; rebuild. 2. To assemble or build again mentally; re-create 3. To cause to adopt a new attitude or outlook